Emotional Hoarding.

Holding on to nostalgic feelings because that's all that's left of anything at this point.

There's no you, no me, no us

The dust has settled.

We just have these memories

Memories that once meant so much

That changed so much.

that just leave an awkward & throbbing silence between us.

Old feelings I may never feel again

Feelings long gone

Love long depleted

Hate long dead

Maybe, it's the energy

That flowed in our combined presence that is the void I am left with

Maybe it's the toxicity

of the self hate that I was once addicted to rearing it's ugly head

So I hoard these feelings, as naturally as I hoard things.

Until eventually I have room for nothing else

& as a rule of thumb, I clear my mind

Just like I do my bedroom

To make space for new things.

Razbliuto (Russian) – The (usually sentimental) feeling you have toward someone you used to loved but no longer do