30 Day Blogging Challenge: Day 15

 Day 15: Where Will You Be In 5 Years?

WOW. Such a personal and intimate question.
But first let's acknowledge that I'm HALFWAY through my challenge, whoop, whoop!
Where P do I want to be in 5 years time? A practicing engineer, an amazing artist, an on trend blogger,  a business woman that has it all figured out. Someone who’s love life isn’t so complicated? Someone who doubts herself less? Wow. This life thing is so unpredictable, I’m honestly scared shitless that I’m not being enough, doing enough, moving fast enough, know enough? It’s a lot, being a millennial baby is soooo hard because you’re under this pressure to be innovative, a millionaire by 23 (I have like… 6 months to figure that out) aaand somehow have kids and a husband/wife because you’re always being stressed for “not having traditional values”. Then because we’re living in times where we need to figure out what we truly need to do to be happy because a lot of us have anxiety and are depressed and did I already mention the enormous, crushing pressure to be miraculous, magical solution solvers to the fuck ups of the baby boomers who run the world yet still blame us for all of it’s problems? I think I did....

This question stresses me and makes me feel like I have to eventually decide what I’m going to conform to and basically pave my path in that direction. So let the millennial misfit that is I, the human being who has little control of time and circumstances just raise her middle fingers in the air much like Beyoncé in our beloved Formation music video and just admit that I DO NOT KNOW! I just hope I’m independent, that I’m an engineer, a poet, a painter, a lover and a liver of life. That’s all I can hope for. Also… that I’m alive because like I said…. I have very little control.